Thirteen is kid enough. I was learning to use heavy artillery at that age. I wish I wasn't in a situation where I had to- I would rather be learning how to be a farmer. [It's miserable looking back on it.]

You are getting to do the good parts of growing up. You should enjoy that while you can. And if you're not going to remember it anyway, you might as well see it as your own tiny life here you can treat however you please.

[He likes that way of looking at it- here, Bulgarin can't touch him. He doesn't have to worry about his cousin for a while. Money is not an issue.]