...Is that so... [To get out of here, huh... Leaving everyone behind out of a selfish desire to escape... it was such an unkind thing to suddenly declare, knowing what Ryou thought of it.
But in that way, wasn't he being selfish by not considering it? No, even if he was, he wanted to stay with people that liked him. He'd been unselfish for a long time. But lately, it was starting to feel as though those rules of politeness were a noose rather than a guide. Maybe it was seeing just how free the people here were. Sure, half of them were scary assholes - his past self apparently included - but they seemed... happy. Was he unhappy? He didn't think he was. But for some reason, that jealousy was still there. Jealousy of people who could stand up for themselves without needing it to be life-threatening before they resisted. Even with his lessons, he still wasn't capable of that. Someday, perhaps.]
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But in that way, wasn't he being selfish by not considering it? No, even if he was, he wanted to stay with people that liked him. He'd been unselfish for a long time. But lately, it was starting to feel as though those rules of politeness were a noose rather than a guide. Maybe it was seeing just how free the people here were. Sure, half of them were scary assholes - his past self apparently included - but they seemed... happy. Was he unhappy? He didn't think he was. But for some reason, that jealousy was still there. Jealousy of people who could stand up for themselves without needing it to be life-threatening before they resisted. Even with his lessons, he still wasn't capable of that. Someday, perhaps.]
Are you still planning to kidnap me?